Minggu, 26 Juli 2020

The Movement

           Recently, I was asked to do discussion with my senior from different major. The topic was about a documentary movie called "Diam dan Dengarkan". You can stream it on Youtube and Vimeo. To make it short, the documentary told 6 different stories. But, it focuses on how environment react in this pandemic time. The narrations gave me a moment of reflection on what I'm doing, did, and will do. It made me feel guilty for Mother Nature because I owe her so much.

         For quite some time, I realized that being an agriculture student is like double edges sword. We are needed as the source of food, but at the same time our activities leads to natural destruction. We can’t deny that the demand of agriculture goods needs extensive land use. As we may know, palm oil and cow husbandry, are the leading factors for forest destruction. Yet, I, as an agricultural economy student, see this as an opportunity. The imagination of getting profit and stable job are the good things for occupation. But, if I recall all the destruction it might happened because of the extensive land use, I am faced with temptation. Should I be an “idealistic environmentalist” while the prospect of having good amount of money is waiting for me? Well, as an agriculture student, I should see this chance to change how people perceive agriculture. It should be perceived into nature-friendly resource of food,not the opposite.

            In my opinion, all those destruction happen because we are too greedy. It is said that it is our instinct for wanting more. However, we have to know when we should stop. We are given with this ability to think. Then, try to think our capacity! Tell ourselves when we should stop! Try to remind ourselves that we’re not the one who can take from the nature. There are animals, plants, and other living organisms whom need nature as their habitat and food resources. I understand that we can’t just give in easily for what we consume, like plastics or beefs. Therefore, we can reduce the amount of it. I can’t suddenly be a vegetarian or vegan in two days. I’m not expecting myself to be a Greta Thurnberg who stop using airplanes due to carbon footprint. I’m expecting myself to be a better person. To know my limit. That’s why I disagree with all the “Mukbang” contents. Yes, they may finish all the food but they go beyond their limit. We don’t get to see how many people trying to do that and end up not finish it? How many foods are wasted? Also, don’t forget about how much effort farmers put to produce those foods? I always get lingered with the sense of guilt after I can’t finish my food. That’s why I try to finish everything I eat and even my family unfinished foods.

            Also, growing up we are taught about nature. In kindergarten we were taught about animal by seeing the real animal at zoo, for instance. As we entered higher education, we focused on specific subjects. Biology is the closest subject to nature. Unfortunately, we learn the nature just by looking at the text book. Read and memorize. Read and memorize are not something bad, though. From that, we know theories that actually based on nature. What we forget is we are not learning from nature itself. My senior high school was an Adiwiyata School. It is a title for “green school” or school that aware of environment. However, the students are not taught about the real nature. Everything seems fake. All those garden, green houses, plants, ponds, and “nature things” in my school were man-made. We didn’t get a chance to learn nature from forests, coastal areas, rivers, or mountains. We are just told on what to do. I don’t even think the juries are well-aware about environmental issues. To make it simpler, it was all bullshit.

            The participation to save the earth and environment must be supported by a lot people. Those people in power and fame have the ability to persuade community to start changing. We are calling those Politicians, Youtubers, Selebgrams, and many more. They can play biggest part for the movement. Mr. Beast has started it all with 20 million trees planting. Now, we are calling for other influencers. It shouldn’t be something big, but start with raising awareness is what we need now. I believe those influencers have the power to do it.

            Meanwhile, I also self-conscious about what I did, am doing, and will do are far from perfection. What I said sounds like self-pretending. I do have temptation and fear to face the future. Am I doing everything, right? Can I save the world from destruction? Is my participation matters? I’m trying with small steps now. I’m trying to change my mindset and action on what I’m doing. I start to think the side effect of what I’m doing. I just don’t want the end of the world coming so quickly. That’s why, I dare myself to change. But, It won't matter when I'm doing it alone. So, I dare you to change together for the better future.Because in togetherness, it is easier.

Kamis, 23 Juli 2020

REUNION

        This week has been a blastful week. On last Saturday, I wasn't expecting a long conversation over phone with my old friends. It was an unexpected reunion for us. From three people talking over Whatsapp chat and then continue to had phone call. Then, two people came. Giving more joyful convo. We were recalling our time in junior high school. The time when we did some stupid things, getting angry over nothing because we forgot the reason, all the laughs, and pictures for the addition. I wasn't expecting to get back to the time when I was 13-15 years old. Looking back at the picture my friend sent me, I was just a little girl. I didn't see that I would come this far.
        Those conversations led me to revisit old pictures on my old laptop. I saw them carefully, trying to remember the stories behind it. The laugh, cry, angst, or disappointment. I treasure those photos. Those are my reminder about my past teenager life. Those are my heal for my adulthood.
        And today, something great happened. For some people, I would be considered as overreacting. But, this news brings back the memories. The 10th anniversary of One Direction. The boyband (probably not) every girl had crush on when they were teenagers. They came back after five years hiatus. It's not officially called reunion, though. But, knowing their social media keep posting about the anniversary is already a reunion for me. All pictures and videos they uploaded are taking me over the memory lane. I was 13 when I knew them. I recalled to fangirling and laughing over their videos with friends are what I did for 5 years (and still doing). It was silly yet beautiful and remarkable memories I wouldn't forget.
        For me, knowing One Direction has given me big impacts. They are the reason I diligently studying English. They are my motivation to come to England (Besides, knowing Harries Twin and other British Youtubers). Now, what I kind of reap of what I sow. Learning English just because of 1D (plus, my junior high school required me to learn) had given me easier time these days. I called it the indirect benefit of being a fangirl. Sure, my motivation to study to England also not change. I would say that I partly owe 1D over my learning and growing process.
        Both of my reunion with my old friends and One Direction have same impact for me. While I'm being confused about what path should I take after this and how my future gonna be, I am being reminded that I was having a lot of fun. I was living life the fullest. I faced life optimistically. I was the girl with dreams.
        Now I want to say to the girl I was 5-7 years ago, thank you for being my heal. I will strive with my best for our dreams.

        Cheers to our life.